The hallowed grounds.

Hello again, I'm sure you all now that I'm leaving for Seremban in about an hour forty-five mins, back to school after a week of holidays..I'm totally not looking forward to it, I've no mood for anything at all. And I'm really sorry if I was rude to anyone on MSN or on the phone, This is not a nice feeling I'm going through......How I wish I was back in Maida Vale, could drown myself while im there. Well, bye people, talk to you from my jail cell...

Maida Vale, London



.....Time starts to slow down and all of these patterns never change.....
...So slow down, because nobody looks at life the same....
..And no one was like this 'til you came along ..
.and reset our dials all wrong.

Father, healer, this heart is so in need

Its 4 Am and Hannah Cyanide wants to shoot me for putting images of faceless nurses in her head, they're not that bad lah Hannah...Okay maybe in the dark at a haunting 4 30 Am they are, lol. She also reminded me that I havent mentioned anything about this upcoming Valentine's day...Well then, let me sum it up in 2 simple words, no make it 3, cuz I wanna curse

Who.Effing.Cares (sorry, had to censor that, kids come here)

No I dont have a Valentine, I'm going to be alone this Valentine's, nobody will even bother to think "How About Zack?" trust me, It's ever too familiar. But there's still that hope that I might find someone, or someone might think about me....Or maybe I'm just hallucinating. More likely hallucinating.

The one I want is out of reach, Im ever so close, but yet still in breach, of the feelings we share, always haunting me like a recurring nightmare
....I miss you love, think of me....
help me see, set my cold heart free

Thats all I ask of you.

It will all be over and here we are
we're stuck inside this salted earth together.
You'll pierce my lungs
my limbs go numb
as my colors fade out.


Be mine, valentine?

<3

And All You Wanted Was Somebody Who Cares

I think I stared at blogger's blank post for a good Ten minutes before I started typing. I dont know what I'm feeling right now, I can hardly begin to describe it and do this idiosyncratic, monotonous, devoid feeling justice.

• My head is aching
• My bones feel sore
• I feel empty
• Bored beyond measure
• habit of constantly cracking my bones
• lethargic
• Insomnia
  
• Feels as though nothing I do will turn out right
• Restless
• Eyes Watering
• Useless
• Alone
• Upset
  
• I'll add more when I come across any more -.-

Now just try and combine all those feelings and tell me what you feel, on the brink of destruction?
I managed to dump this cancerous feeling for about 3 hours when I went for Iman Alia's early birthday dinner, her birthday's on the 13th so don't forget to wish her....

.JadelinE 8-| says:
xD
Azriel Zacky. says:
xD to you too

See?! that was rude! God, this feeling's totally displeasing. I cant post up pics of the dinner now cause Nadira has most of the pictures, so I'll blog about it when I get the pics, or when I'm feeling more upbeat, right now all I'm in the mood for is Silent hill music.

probably what the inside of my head is like

This song is actually really beautiful...